Ten.

Ten. The number of days I have left of this life I have made in South Carolina. What??

Last week I bought a ONE WAY plane ticket to San Jose, Costa Rica. There I will be attending language school for anywhere from 6-10 months, depending on how well I pick up on Spanish. I'll be living with a Costa Rican family while I'm there. Thankfully, my teammate Jen will be coming with me! We are on the same flight from Charlotte to CR. There are 5 other girls on YL staff in CR (2 full time, 3 interns), so I will get to get a taste of International School ministry before I officially move to Nica.

On some days, the days where I can just barely begin to wrap my mind around the reality of leaving, there is a looming sadness/nervousness. Sad to be leaving so many friends and family in Columbia and nervous about the next phase in life.

But most days, I just feel excited! Ever since I got back from that faithful summer in the Dominican Republic where the Lord completely wrecked what I thought were my hopes and dreams and created new ones, I have felt this constant pull. A pull away from the life that has made me so comfortable for so many years. It's almost as if for the past year and half, I feel I do not belong here. In the States, that is. Like my life is purposed for something completely different. Like my heart is completely reconstructed to desire new things. Like my eyes were changed see things in a new perspective. And so, I'm excited! I am excited to see what the Lord will bring in these upcoming days, months, years. To feel, see, experience, ponder things in a new way.

It reminds me of Isaiah 43. God is telling His sinful people that He has bought them, redeemed them and protected them. He declares them as witnesses of His great name. He tells them how He will bring them out of bondage. He tells what that He knows of their sins and goes on in chapter 44 to still shower them in blessings. But in the midst of all that, He says "See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up, do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." (v. 19).

God is always up to something, isn't He? And I can't wait to find out what it is.