Monday, July 29, 2013

Quinceañera.

This weekend was one for the books! In Latin American culture, the 15th birthday for girls is a big one - similar to the oh-so-spectacular "coming out to society" debuatante balls that happen in the "deep south" of the States. If I was ever unsure of my southern heritage, a quick look back to my deb pictures is a sweet reminder. And many of friends who spend time at my parents house also are given the entertainment and enjoyment of not only seeing these pictures but also mocking me shamelessly for them. (I'm looking at you Scott, Whit and James...)

Anyways, back to the quinceañera...which is what the event is called down here. This time it was Olga's niece who was celebrating the event. I am positive that Olga had been talking about it since the second week I got here and to miss it was not an option. Not that I wanted to! The idea of experiencing something so culturally beautiful and unique swept excitement through me for months before the big event. Preparations began Thursday in our house, as Olga was in charge of most of the food for the 100 guests invited to the fiesta. Giant grocery bags of food, boxes of clean white plates and bags of rented and borrowed silverware began to cover our front room. A steady stream of people constantly flowed through the house, dropping things off, picking things up, drinking coffee, eating lunch, shooting off spanish loudly and rapidly - it was enough to make a gringa's head spin! (Which mine did, for most of the time in the days to follow)

Friday begin with an exam in Spanish class for me. But, as I was entirely too brain dead to attend my last two classes, I skipped (literally...get it?) home after my exam to help Olga with more preparations. Shocked at my oh-so sudden appearance, I begged my host brother, Josue, to "do as I say, not as a I do!" when he threatened to follow my lead and skip his classes as well. Knowing full well he was joking, he still did not let me live it down for the rest of the day calling me a "bad example". (Side note: Public schools in Costa Rica usually have a morning/afternoon schedule. So Josue goes to school all day Monday, Tuesdays and Thursdays in the mornings only and Wednesdays and Fridays in the afternoons only. I promise he went to his classes later in the afternoon :) )

Olga's brother stopped by and picked up Olga and I for a quick trip to Price Mart, the equivalent to Sam's Club. While Olga and her brother tried to figure out what they needed to buy, I helped by pushing the cart behind them, helping myself to the free samples and attempting to keep up in their rapid-fire conversation. But most of the time just strolled along, enjoying the familiar feeling of grocery aisles and North American brand products. After we returned home and lunched, a friend of Olga's came over to help. I excused myself to my room and before I knew it had fallen into a deep slumber. Much needed. Later, awakened by the sound of Olga calling my name, I sleepily sauntered down the stairs. I was greeted by two new helpers in the kitchen and a seat with my name on it. My task, you ask? Cutting out two hundred turquoise, white and black icing butterflies with a cookie cutter. I also somehow became in charge of counting how many of each color we had. You can imagine the confusion bouncing around in my brain as I switched from counting in english, to saying the total in spanish, then back to english in my mind for adding and again to spanish for the final count. I can't wait for the day my mind just thinks in Spanish.

My flawless skills at making sure my jeans got as much flour on them as possible.

After the icing cutting and counting, we had some cafecito - just what the brain needed! Afternoon coffee is slowly becoming one of my favorite parts of living in Latin America. Josue and my host sister, July (pronounced Julie), came home from school and work, respectively. One of Olga's nephews also came over to join the fun. We were a full house this night! Our next job was to roll out small little "bodies" for the butterflies, of different colors to go between their wings. It was intriguing the way Olga was so detailed in the intricacies of something that would just disintegrate into our stomachs the following day. It is one of her passions though, so who can blame her for wanting it to look marvelous?

We finished all the cake decorations at 10 pm that night. Somewhere along the way, there was a video made of Olga's cake decorating skills, some Chinese food for dinner, a discussion of how to pronounce the word "cupcake"correctly in English and Spanish, dancing, singing and plenty of laughter to go around. Needless to say, I was beat.

Promise we didn't actually eat these - was only for the pic!

Do you see what I mean with details?

Pleased with the finished product. 
In the making!

The next morning was an early one. Somehow, my body woke me up at 7:30 am (I guess not super surprising considering the 5am sunrise every. single. day.) Upon opening the door to my room, I was greeted with plenty of clamoring noises and delicious smells from downstairs. After sitting down to some coffee and bread with Olga and Josue, the festivities began! I was put to work with Josue peeling and cutting potatoes. We couldn't help but giggle at how completely terrible and slow we both were at the task. Suddenly, our saving grace, a friend of Olgas, came over to help and put us to shame with how flawlessly her knife cut through the skin of the potato, as if it was butter. With her help...okay, let's be honest, with her doing probably over half the work with ease, we finished sooner rather then later.

I was please out how shocked she was that I was up so early and downstairs helping out. She asked Olga why she was "making the renter work". Olga responded with a smug "she's not just a renter, she's part of the family" that made my heart soar. I belonged. What a sweet moment that was for me that even in my poor potato cutting skills and even poorer spanish skills, she still claimed me.

It wasn't long before Olga's sister, the mom of the birthday girl, called in frantic because she and her husband were the only ones at the saloon setting up for the party. So July and I and a mountain of cupcakes, mashed potatoes, baked chicken, plates, silverware and serving utentsils piled into the car of Olga's oldest daughter, Kata and we sped off to the saloon. Here we did our fair share of putting out table clothes, straightening tables and chairs, hanging balloons and hanging more balloons, cleaning glasses, sweeping, ect ect. Usual pre-party preparations. Before we realized it, it was 2:30 and the party started at 3! We rushed home in a whirlwind to get ready for the night's occasion. Thankfully, in usually Latin American style where time is but a number and what's important is the people you are with and the event you are attending, when July and I arrived around 4:45, we hadn't missed a beat. In fact, we arrived just in time to see the presentation of the birthday girl!


The dance floor and balloons and lighting.

Cupcakes galore! This isn't half of them and we never even cut into the 3 cakes!

Balloons on balloons on confetti on balloons.

In what seemed to be a cross between a debutante and a wedding, each of her friends that was invited were presented one by one, by name, while the rest of us stood around them and ooed and awed at their dresses and suits and smiles. Then the birthday girl herself was presented, both her parents at her side. Once everyone got into position and plenty of pictures had been snapped, small boxes were handed out to each of the girls and boys standing in the front. And before I realized what was happening, the boxes were opened and about 30 butterflies, alive and well, were released into the building - I am guessing to signify the blossoming of this new woman into society. What a sight! We all broke down into a fit of giggles as some of the butterflies had other plans - plans to stay tightly tucked away into their boxes. They were not pleased when they were forced out of their tiny little box of comfort into the real world. But really, who can blame them?

After the butterfly release, the father and daughter had their first dance, followed by each of her accompanying friends dancing with whoever they were partnered with in the presentation. Then a toast was given by the grandmother, cheers were saluted all around, the appetizers were brought out and the DJ began pumping Latino tunes like it was his job. Well, it was his job but that's besides the point. Unlike at a typical wedding in the States (where the first 15 to 20 songs everyone stands around awkwardly, whispering and questioning who will be the first to break the dance floor ice), Latinos immediately jumped up and onto the dance floor within minutes of the first song being played. It wasn't long before I was dragged onto the dance floor as well to learn some sweet Latino dance moves. Let's just say, unlike Shakira, these hips do lie and they tried to lie their way through the night on the dance floor as I awkwardly attempted to fit in, in the sea of Latinos, seamlessly moving from one dance move to another. Let's just say, I've never felt more gringa then when I am on a dance floor with other Latinos who dance with such grace and intricacy. I am now more determined then ever to learn how to dance the ever popular salsa, merengue, ect, ect.




In the next hours, dinner was served, a belly dancer danced, balloons were popped, confetti was thrown, and fun was had all around. I can't tell if I am getting better at understanding Spanish or if I am getting better at knowing when in the conversation to smile or laugh or nod my head in agreement. Maybe it's a collaboration of both, but that's if I'm grading myself on a curve. So after we cleaned up the confetti and popped balloons, gathered the butterflies still on the ceiling, packed up the kitchen, stacked the chairs and folded the tables - all in high heels, I might add - I was drained. Tired and worn out and brain-dead and feet hurting...but happy and full and smiling and grace filled. It felt almost as if the whole weekend had been this giant grace filled ball of fun. If that makes any sense at all.

And so, as I collapsed into my bed at the end of the night, I smiled to myself, whispering a quiet "thank you" to Jesus for all that He had and has given. Then I slept for 12 hours straight and it was glorious.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Happy Sunday!

"Where I have so punished, let me so Love.
Where I have lived in fear, teach me Freedom.
Where I have restricted, help me to trust the Table before me.
Where I have hurt others, teach me to Confess.
Where I have hurt myself, teach me Healing, unloosing the hands from around my neck.
Where I have been hurt, teach me to Forgive.
Where I have controlled, show me Surrender.
Where I am alone, let me be Embraced.
Where I remain tired, lead me to the gift of Rest.
Where I remain afraid of tomorrow or ashamed by yesterday,
unveil me to the gift of Grace today."
-Abbie Smith



Where the majority of my Sunday was spent...resting and reading and typing and writing with the rain pouring in the background.

So much goodness and so much grace.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Volcán Arenal.

This weekend, I got to opportunity to head to one of the "active but sleeping" volcanoes in Costa Rica. It was the prefect mixture of relaxation, exploring, refreshment, and adventuring. What follows are some of my grace moments from the weekend...






 "We must not only read our Bible, listen to sermons, and explore spiritual matters with friends, but we also must find those quiet places, those still points in our hectic lives where we are silent before God. Nothing restores perspective, provides refreshment and reveals new direction quite as effectively as unhurried time with the Lord, time with no agenda and no purpose except communion. The Spirit of God can search us best when our soul is still."

Sunday, July 21, 2013

unpretty.

Grace isn't always pretty.

It isn't always wrapped up in a perfect little package, topped with a bow, delivered to our front door, ready to be opened.

Sometimes it comes unexpectedly and brokenly and we can't understand it and we don't want to understand it.

The biggest grace of all came this way.

Christ on the cross:
battered
torn
bruised
shamed
bloody
scarred
deformed
mocked
condemned.

The cross wasn't pretty.

The people didn't understand.

It was grace, none the less.

No, grace isn't aways pretty. But it's always beautiful.

Sunday, July 14, 2013

5.

Today marks 5 months of being in Costa Rica. 5 whole months of being torn down and reconstructed, of learning and being taught daily, of keeping eyes wide and heart open, of loving something new and missing something old, of adventures and crying and language and newness and culture and laughing and hurting and changing and fully living. What a life. 

And so, in honor of this not-so-monumental occasion, I have decided to compile a list of my top 5 favorite moments of being in Costa Rica - inspired by a walk with a friend on the beach on Saturday who asked me this very question.

five. Visa trip to Panama - so much laughter and beauty and fun and grace. Although it is technically not "in Costa Rica", taking Visa trips every 90 days are part of living in Costa Rica. So it passes the test. And there was too much goodness in this trip to not make the list!

four. Going to the beach with Olga and her sisters. Pretty sure I did not say a word the entire time except for si, no and gracias. I look back on this trip and smile at my first bout of culture shock, unknowing what I was getting myself into. What else can you do?

three. Service Project with the International School students and Serving on work crew at Vida Joven Growth Camp were both amazing experiences. 

two. Getting to be a part of the All Country Costa Rica Mega Club. Cannot fully explain how awesome this was to see so many different faucets of Young Life to be in one place and so many youth from all over Costa Rica getting to come to this event. One for the record books for this girl!

one. There was this one Sunday, I remember so clearly. Literally just spent the whole day just hanging out and laughing with my host family, helping them do stuff around the house. It was such a sweet sense of belonging.

So there you go. In no particular order, 5 of my favorite memories from Costa Rica thus far. Here's to the next seven months!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

reminders.

Once again, I found myself surrounded by Latinos, all speaking rapid Spanish, with only two other gringas (North Americans) in sight. Luckily, they were easy to spot with their red, curly locks.

Once again, I found myself fumbling through my broken spanish and searching for the correct verb, conjugation, sentence structure, and adjective all while trying to decipher at least the main idea of the question being asked to me or the job being asked of me or the Bible verse being read to me.

Once again, I found myself out of comfort zone, knowing very few people (and even less Spanish, it seemed!) as I headed out to serve on the work crew for Costa Rica's Vida Joven Growth Camp.

Once again, I found myself lost in translation over and over and over again and nodding and smiling even when I had no idea what was being said.

Because sometimes, that's all you can do. There is only so many times you can ask someone to repeat the same sentence before you want to crawl under a table and never show your face again.

And then you get those few kind souls who take pity on you and attempt to hold conversations and tell you how sufficient your Spanish is and pretend to understand what the heck you are saying.

But these are the moments. These are the trips. These are the people.

These are the moments where God so tenderly whispers to me: "I will be with you" (Exodus 3:12a).
These are trips that fill my heart and humble me and draw me closer to dependence on Him.
These are the beautiful, loving people that remind me why I moved to Latin America.

Reminders. I need them all the time. How easily I forget.
His grace. My sin.
His love. My unfaithfulness.
His holiness. My wretchedness.
His sovereignty. My attempt to control.
His strength. My weakness.

Forgetfulness has the capability to be our biggest downfall. I think it is my biggest downfall. Well, one of them.

When we forget, we stop trusting. When we stop trusting, we stop depending. When we stop depending, we end up bitter and sad and angry and crying and unsure and messed up.

And so I plead with Jesus: never let me forget. I beg that He would keep sending His grace gifts, the little details of mundane life that make this side of heaven more bearable. Reminder gifts of grace.

And this weekend was one of those gifts. I got the chance to serve around 120 youth of Vida Joven, along side 10 other latino high school students. I got to practice my Spanish every second of every day. I got to wake up at 4 o'clock every morning to get in line for showers with hot water. I got to look out of the dining hall windows, over the mountains and down into the central valley of San Jose. I got to watch the sunrise over the mountains.

What a beautiful mess I'm in. And hoping it never ends!

First night: "Cowboy" themed...and hair nets.

With all the amazing cooks from the weekend!

All of the work crew at the special dinner on the last night.


Four person thumb war...why not?

World Cup Night.
And per the usual, coffee was a must for the weekend.

International Schools Team that was serving at camp.
And, of course, had to celebrate the Forth of July! With watermelon lollipops.

Monday, July 1, 2013

june.

June was a month filled with sad goodbyes, fun celebrations, lots of time spent with my tica family and lots of time spent learning Spanish! 

After much prayer, talking with my team in Nicaragua and judging from my level of Spanish, I have decided to stay an extra semester in Costa Rica to keep learning Spanish on a deeper level.

And so, I will remain in Costa Rica until December and then make the move to Nicaragua. What an adventure this move has continued to be!

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